I am really feeling picked on at work and I am super frustrated about it. Two of my co workers are out to get me (see drama post) and I feel like I have no friends on my shift. It is bad enough that I have to work swing shift so that I never get to see Matt, but I have no friends or allies and it is really starting to wear on me.
Today I was proud of myself. The other day my co worker Diane (one of the ladies from Drama) told my supervisor that I talk too much and that is one of the problems that she has with me. Well... I know I do. I talk WAY too much so i decided (without being told too) that I will not talk as much. I have been really trying and it has been very hard for me. I guess I am just too much of a social butterfly, but today I did it. I hardly spoke at all and I was so proud of myself. Then it happened.
My desk Sgt came over and sat in a chair between Felicia's (other girl involved in Drama) cube and my cube. She asked me some questions and a conversation started. Well wouldn't you know that would be the ONLY time all night that my trainer would come in and check in on us???
Well... I ended up getting in trouble. I did not get yelled at but i got "You have got to curb your talking or else." I understand that perception is everything and that I got the short end of the stick but COME ON!!!! Or else??? What is that about?? I spent all night listening to Diane and Felicia go on and on about stupid things they did when they were drunk and pools and puffy flaming hot Cheeto's!! I am so frustrated.
I have decided that my only course of action is to not talk at all. Unless absolutely necessary. Ya know the "Hey. Your chair is on fire." necessary. And that sucks for me because I love to talk and socialize and meet people. I guess this is just how it goes for the next year... please pray for me guys. Cause this is gonna be really hard.
I think I am beginning to hate my job- sad cause I use to like it so much.
